christmas is here

hello holidays!!! xmas is right around the corner i got a new cell for the weekend dont have to deal with the lil witch this weekend so im stoked!!! i hate that lil grr. oh well. finally new year is upon us and i cnat wait. only 3 months till i turn 17 which is a whole year closer til i turn 18. my 18th birthday im having a wild ass party everyone is invited especially sexy bi girls who want to get crazy under 40 at least.... well ta for now

thanksgiving

a whole week off of school pretty sweet a new b/f on top of that i had a great vaca. he calls me everynight and i like him a lot hes a sweet guy. thats what i need in my life i cant wait to do more with him. thanksgiving rocked i ate til i was sick!!! lots of good food and family all together lil kids running around sceaming and driving all us older ones crazy!!!! go figure going there is the best form of birth control, after a holiday there you'll never want to have kids.. thats a fact right there!!! well i got class so ttyl!!!

death of a blood

deshawn didnt make it, went to the hospital to see him yesterday only to watch him give up his battle with death. he had internal bleeding from the bullet that blew a hole right through him. all the boys are pist and trying to get info out of ppl who witnessed it so that they can seek their revenge. now ramone (deshawns brother) is trying to get custody of his daughter shay so that her mother cant have her ( she is a prostitute/drug addict) so shay is only 2 and doesnt need her mother. so peace to my lost brotha deshawn. R.I.P Deshawn Ramone Williams. another death in the williams family i am sad to say... first his cousin tyrone (rest in peace my love) then his younger brother ringo then his cousin leone and now him. all due to gang shyt one way or another. i love this family seems like im a part of it i love all them boys their good ppl no matter what they have done they are like a brotherhood and they all take care of me and i know they will be there for me no matter what, they have all known me for so long that they care too much. i care about every single on of them boys and i will look out for them and take care of them just like they do me.... R.I.P to all the lost souljas in this family. Williams forever and for life!!

another death

my great gma hartley died on thursday november 8th her funeral was held monday. it is sad that the only time my moms side of the family gets together its for a funeral. some of my family i had never met before and some i hadnt seen in years. like my cuz anthony, hes my bff and i hadnt seen him or talked to him in forever. i didnt want to let him go on monday b/c i know it will be a long time b4 i see him again. i hate that i never get to see that side of my family i love them all so much. so im going to see if i can set up a family reunion for this coming summer so that all the hartleys get together!! i cant wait to see my cuz anthony again. he is so tall!!! hes like working on 6 foot here and im like 4 11. geez that sux!!! hes my best friend tho i remember all the fun times we had when we were kids b/c we're the same age so we've always been close... well another bad thing my dude deshawn got shot last night and hes not going to make it, shot in a gang fight so its the way he would have wanted to go but hes in a lot of pain i wish he could have died instantly instead of suffering while his lungs fill up with blood and his organs shut down. we all know hes not going to make it so this is yet another friend i have to lay to rest...

My life right now

my life right now kind of sux. tho i am in love with a man who lives far away. hes a blood and he makes me happy and we're so much a like its not funny. i keep getting hit on by exs that treated me bad and i want them to just leave me alone. it sometimes makes me want to run away again but i have 4 years in dys hanging over my head if i get in trouble again. i was locked up 8 months out of last year and i just got out of jail in january. been out since then. got off probation in june after being on it for more than a year... Mi Vida Loca. im a juinor and my scedule is packed, i packed it so that i would stay out of trouble. and i am i have problems with ppl here at school but other than that im stayin cool. i hope that things do get better cuz things are starting to get crazy and im liable to go insane especially if i dont get out of my house!! i hate living there but my dad wont let me move out. ill be 17 february 9th then only one year til i can get the hell outta here!!! peace